The start...

For males, it's always been about the penis.

And it all starts when we learn how to masturbate.

Since elementary school, I was fascinated by the male genitalia. Growing up when I did, this was a fascination you didn't discuss with anyone, even your best friend. We were hetro focused, especially during puberty.

Any chance I got I was checking other guy's penises out, size, shape, color, whatever. They were always flaccid. Mine was the only one I saw as an erection. Every chance I could it find a very private place and I'd arouse my favorite buddy. I never climaxed. It wasn't until I got the "book" from my dad that I found out what true, addictive pleasures were in store.

So at this point I'm not sure figuring out whether I was gay or not wasn't really on my radar. There were some indicators that it might be more of an interest in anything sexual. One indicator was during a sleepover party with five of my classmates. We were all in our underwear. I was sitting on the floor while they were sitting on beds. I was pretty shy and they were doing all the talking. We were talking about sexual stuff, like getting erections, but nobody was taking any undies off or talking about masturbating. That's when I realized I was probably the only guy in the room with a Boner. The undies hid it well. Had I not been so shy I just might have whipped it out and seen what happened.

Opportunity missed.